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When it comes to Ben Braeden, Claire is of two minds.

She wishes her relationship with him was as easy to define as her relationship with Jesse Turner. When it comes to the Antichrist, her opinion is simple and straight forwards: she means it when she calls him “Assbutt”. She doesn’t care very much for the magical misfit, and doubts that will ever change. There are just too many years of mutual antagonism between them.

She doesn’t care for his relationship with Ben, either. Although the boys are closer in age to her, it grates on her nerves that Jesse has so much more influence than she does.

But Ben himself… her feelings for him are so difficult to pin down. Jesse is dislike and mistrust but she has no word, no definition for what Ben means to her. It is something… more than anything she’s ever felt. She cares so very deeply for him, enough so that she would and has dropped everything to come when he calls for her. She has gone to him when he needed a shoulder to lean on, and when all he wanted to do was share a beer in celebration of his mother’s birthday.

The part that frustrates her is that Ben doesn’t quite feel the same pull.

(She would be absolutely devastated to learn just how similar her relationship with Ben is to the one that Castiel once had with Dean Winchester. She would be horrified to think that of all the things that Castiel had to leave her with it was that.)

She hates the unknowing hold that he has over her, but she can’t find it in herself to hate Ben. She has kissed him and lain with him. She has hit him and run from him. She has caught him in bed with others, and he has cheered her on as she flirted and teased her way across the country, scoring them cheap eats and cheaper beds.

She loves him, but she hates his effect on her.

my very rough untitled ben/claire thing

The first time that Ben meets Claire, he’s nineteen and she has just turned seventeen. Although he’s still joe normal at this point, still thinks that the world is understandable and the supernatural only exists in television and movies, it’s a memorable first meeting.

It’s hard to forget pulling someone out of the wreckage of their car.

He doesn’t even know what happened that night. Only that he stumbled across the destroyed car and found an unconscious girl in the driver’s seat. He managed to get her out and checked her for injuries before calling the police.

Miraculously, she was uninjured. She also disappeared from the hospital over night. It was only later that he found out that her name was Claire Novak, and she had disappeared along with her mother five years earlier. They had left a dead body behind, and both had been wanted for questioning.

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The second time that Claire and Ben meet, she is nineteen and he is twenty one. Even if she had been conscious when he pulled her from the wreck, she wouldn’t have recognized him as the same man. He’s lost a lot of the muscle and bulk that had helped to rescue her, and he has shaved all of his hair off. Curling away from his temple is a long line of stitches holding together a rather nasty looking gash.

She’s not impressed. She’s seen a lot of hunters take some pretty severe damage from stupid stunts, and this looks like just another idiot looking to get himself killed. Still… he’s the guy she’s here to see, the guy who jumped through all the hoops to even get her number, let alone the thousand and one checks she put him through just to make sure he was neither angel nor demon.

When they part, he has her personal cellphone number, and she has the first of many stories about how he got the head wound.

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Their third meeting is a year later, when Claire finds herself on a hunt that crosses his. Claire has been tracking a demon for months, and Ben has found himself on a salt and burn directly in the demon’s path. It’s Ben’s first encounter with a real demon since he turned hunter, but Claire is stunned to discover that he actually knows what he’s doing.

They manage to exorcise the demon, and burn the ghost, all in the same two hour span. Claire manages two beers before she’s falling asleep, and Ben lets her crash in his motel room instead of the in the backseat of her car.

He’s still shaving his head, and she gets another story about the scar when he catches her staring at it. She smacks him upside the head in response. He promises to call her if anything demon related winds up on his radar.

He calls her every couple of weeks even when it doesn’t.

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The fourth meeting is on purpose, with Claire bringing a blessed weapon to Ben so he can destroy the creature that has been plaguing a mid-western town for six months. It’s not an exaggeration, either; the creature feasts upon diseased souls, and the entire town is under quarantine when she arrives.

Claire kicks up a fuss when she finally tracks Ben down and discovers that his scar has split open. It’s not the puss and blood that scares her— it’s the ectoplasm slowly oozing out of it.

Ben kisses her to get her to shut up.

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The fifth time doesn’t have anything to do with the supernatural or life threatening situations.

Ben takes her out to dinner and a movie, and they both wind up throwing popcorn at the screen. They really should have known better than to pick a vampire flick.

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It’s not until she’s twenty-two that she finds out that the scar came from brain surgery, and it takes meeting his mother to learn that. He rolls his eyes and complains about losing his mystique thankyouverymuch mom.

So now that I’ve exploded Claire all over the internets (ok yes. two journals is not the whole of the internet. shoosh.) it’s time for some Novak Family Headcanon!

  1. Castiel doesn’t think to put any protections on Claire and Amelia until after he’s started his downward spiral into humanity/losing his powers
  2. He doesn’t expect them to truly be targets, so he doesn’t put the same level of protection on them as he does Sam and Dean (mostly so he can conserve his powers for the fight he’s found himself in.)
  3. Amelia buys (and in some cases steals) texts and grimoires and anything she can think of to to protect her daughter/hide them from demons and angels alike
  4. But Claire is the one who winds up doing all the research and conducting experiments and eventually cloaking them from everything ever
  5. even though Claire still wants to see Castiel and Jimmy more than anything in the world and prays to both of them every night.

And now for some Ben Braeden head canonish stuff:

  • Erasing a year’s worth of memories is no easy task. And Castiel was honestly more focused on erasing Lisa’s memories than Ben’s.
  • Castiel has that whole sinning thing going for him now, so we can totally call it jealousy.
  • Anyways, the point of this is that Castiel’s messing around in Ben’s brain caused some problems ala Joyce Summers & The Dawn Thing. 
  • Except that Ben actually manages to survive the brain surgery thing.
  • This doesn’t happen until he’s like… 21, though
  • So he gets his teenage years of blissful normality.
  • and then after the tumor is removed, it’s like. So yeah. Cas didn’t actually remove anything. Just like… shoved the memories into the same spot that early childhood memories go.

I dunno. I just like the idea of Ben having to have brain surgery, and shaving his head to show off the scar when he finally turns hunter. Then coming up with completely random stories as to how he got it. “Oh well I was fighting a Wendigo, right? And—”

Novak Family Headcanon

Another note for my Claire rp journal headcanon, but as it actually pertains to more than just Claire I figured I’d make it a Novak Family thing.

Like her dad, Claire didn’t get a whole lot out of being a Vessel. No super powers, no epic knowledge, nothing that sets her apart from the rest of humanity.

Amelia, on the other hand… with the way that the demon was forced out and killed, there was a residue left behind. Its not enough to give her any fancy powers but its enough that she can feel an angel’s grace as a creepy crawlie feeling along her spine.

The worst part of it is that she can feel the remnants of Castiel’s grace in Claire, and she lives in constant fear that Claire will disappear the way Jimmy did.

headcanony stuff for Claire

mashing the stuff from the young!Claire I play into the list of stuff I’m slowly putting together for the future!Claire I want to play.

 it almost broke Claire when Castiel told her he wasn’t her father

  • even later, when she knows it wasn’t Jimmy, it still stings
  • because this is an angel and they are supposed to be loving representatives of God
  • and he broke her for most of year; made her think her father didn’t want her

 she was raised as a devout Christian. 

  • she wasn’t totally interested in it, but it made father happy for her to go along with it
  • and then Jimmy left
  • and Claire prayed every night that he would return
  • she tried to be a better Christian, thinking that would make him return
  • but it freaked Amelia out whenever she got too into it
  • because Amelia was afraid she’d have the same sort of break with reality that Jimmy had had
  • when daddy came home, Claire knew it was because she had prayed so hard
  • so when Castiel asked to use her body to save her parents, she said yes. 

 she spent at least a year on the run with Amelia

  • from both police and demons
  • what with Roger’s dead body left in their house
  • and with however the demons knew Jimmy was empty, Amelia was afraid that they’d know Claire had briefly been a vessel
  • Amelia drained her bank accounts, Jimmy’s accounts, even Claire’s savings account to fund them through the year
  • which flagged the police, who were treating Claire as a kidnap victim
  • (the police had a theory that Jimmy came home, kidnapped Claire & Amelia, possibly killing them the way he killed Roger, but they had hope they’d find at least Claire alive)
  • it was a really rough year on both of them
  • Claire will never tell anyone how hard it was

 Daddy Issues! because supernatural wouldn’t be complete without them.

  • she spent a year thinking it was her fault that daddy left
  • and then there was that guilt that she was afraid of Jimmy when he was just trying to protect her from demons
  • and the guilt over Jimmy giving up his body to Castiel on a permanent basis so she wouldn’t have to
  • it’s an awkward ‘I love him for saving me, hate him for abandoning me’ back and forth 

 she’s over protective of Amelia and Jimmy. and even Castiel

  • because as much as she hates Castiel for taking her father away, she wants to believe that it was for the right reasons
  • she gets a little bitchy when people bad mouth her mom
  • she can barely control her temper when Jimmy is brought up

 she’s scared of Castiel

  • she doesn’t remember much of anything of her 10-minute possession, but she remembers the feeling
  • she refers to it as being “the virgin in the volcano”
  • because she only thinks of angelic possession in terms of sacrifice. 
  • his possession of her wasn’t long enough for her to get anything out of it, just the knowledge that he is vast and powerful

 Claire is Castiel’s “True Vessel”

  • That “As it is in heaven, so shall it be on earth” thing (aka the “Why Sam is Lucifer’s Vessel but not Michael’s” reasoning) threw a bit of a wrench into that; in order for Claire to mature into the True Vessel, she would have to be closer in experience to Castiel;
  • In other words, her father would have to go missing with no sign of ever returning, and she would have to go hunting for him.
  • When Castiel actually took her as a vessel, she was only beginning to go down that road, so it’s not quite a perfect match, and why Castiel was willing to take Jimmy back instead of staying with Claire
  • as a side note, even if Castiel and Claire ever meet again, it’s unlikely that Castiel would give up Jimmy’s body for hers.
  • after everything that Castiel and Jimmy have gone through together, Jimmy’s body & soul have grown into something more than any “True Vessel” could ever be.

 Hunting was never Claire’s intention

  • all she wanted to do was find her dad
  • she followed a trail of dead angels, but never seemed to catch up to Castiel or the Winchesters
  • after awhile she started putting together the signs of demon possession and started trying to use that to find them
  • slowly she actually started to learn about more “normal” supernatural entities, and how to protect herself
  • leading in to how to protect other people when they started getting in over their heads
  • and finally taking a proactive role in protecting people by actively hunting the supernatural
  • looking back on it, she laughs about “going about things backwards”

There will probably be more to come, but I’m being distracted by TVtropes.

    so instead of vacuuming the couch I drew future!Claire stargazing. I’ve got a bit of a write-up to go with this, but I actually have to go vacuum the couch now. There has been a threat to my ice cream.

    But here’s a line:

    It’s not her father’s coat. She’s never been able to find it; never been able to find Dean or Sam or Castiel to ask about it, to ask for it. But it’s close enough that when a hunt goes bad she can wrap herself up in it and pretend he’s there to make everything better.

    She hopes that, wherever he is, he knows.

    THIS WAS NOT WHAT I MEANT TO WRITE. But you can have it anyways. Headcanonish stuff for Claire

    characters:  Claire Novak
    series: Supernatural
    words: 429
    summary: (Five times the victim)

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    The first time that someone used her father’s disappearance to taunt her, all Claire could do was cry.

    Daddy’s last words to her rung in her ears, echoing the nasty girl’s voice: her daddy didn’t want her. Her daddy left her because she wasn’t good enough for him. She is the reason that daddy is gone.

    She’s only ten. She has no idea what it is that she did wrong, but she promises that if he comes home she’ll do better, be better. She’ll go to mass every day, and say grace, and she won’t even complain about it. She’ll make sure to change out of her Sunday best after church before she goes out to play. She promises all of this in her bedtime prayers, begging and pleading with God to bring her daddy back.

    The second and third times that her classmates torment her, she locks herself into the girl’s washroom to escape it. She’s crying and heartbroken, but she’s also so mad that she throws her bag at the mirror and screams at daddy for leaving them. Why? What did she do that made him hate her so much that he left?

    Mom tries to explain to her that it’s not her fault. She tries to tell her that daddy had been having some problems and just needs some time to himself, but Claire knows she’s lying. She’s heard mom crying late at night, and heard the phone calls, seen the flyers. Mom is trying so hard to find him, but he’s just gone.

    The fourth time that some girl tries to make her cry, Claire hits her. It’s an accident in all honesty. The girl had backed her into a corner, and in trying to escape, she caught the other girl across the face with her hand.

    The rules were pretty straight forwards: bullying was bad, but you got into a lot more trouble for fighting, and Claire was sent home while the other girl went to the nurse. Her mom wasn’t happy in the slightest. She yelled and cried and it made Claire feel terrible for putting more stress on her mother. She promised not to fight ever again.

    Except that the fifth time that someone brought up her daddy, it wasn’t one of the girls in her class. It was the older brother of the girl that she’d hit, and when he started in on the same tirade, Claire lost it. With tears streaming down her face, she threw herself at him; biting and scratching and just trying to make him shut up.

    The bullying didn’t stop.

    But Claire eventually stopped crying.