mashing the stuff from the young!Claire I play into the list of stuff I’m slowly putting together for the future!Claire I want to play.
it almost broke Claire when Castiel told her he wasn’t her father
- even later, when she knows it wasn’t Jimmy, it still stings
- because this is an angel and they are supposed to be loving representatives of God
- and he broke her for most of year; made her think her father didn’t want her
she was raised as a devout Christian.
- she wasn’t totally interested in it, but it made father happy for her to go along with it
- and then Jimmy left
- and Claire prayed every night that he would return
- she tried to be a better Christian, thinking that would make him return
- but it freaked Amelia out whenever she got too into it
- because Amelia was afraid she’d have the same sort of break with reality that Jimmy had had
- when daddy came home, Claire knew it was because she had prayed so hard
- so when Castiel asked to use her body to save her parents, she said yes.
she spent at least a year on the run with Amelia
- from both police and demons
- what with Roger’s dead body left in their house
- and with however the demons knew Jimmy was empty, Amelia was afraid that they’d know Claire had briefly been a vessel
- Amelia drained her bank accounts, Jimmy’s accounts, even Claire’s savings account to fund them through the year
- which flagged the police, who were treating Claire as a kidnap victim
- (the police had a theory that Jimmy came home, kidnapped Claire & Amelia, possibly killing them the way he killed Roger, but they had hope they’d find at least Claire alive)
- it was a really rough year on both of them
- Claire will never tell anyone how hard it was
Daddy Issues! because supernatural wouldn’t be complete without them.
- she spent a year thinking it was her fault that daddy left
- and then there was that guilt that she was afraid of Jimmy when he was just trying to protect her from demons
- and the guilt over Jimmy giving up his body to Castiel on a permanent basis so she wouldn’t have to
- it’s an awkward ‘I love him for saving me, hate him for abandoning me’ back and forth
she’s over protective of Amelia and Jimmy. and even Castiel
- because as much as she hates Castiel for taking her father away, she wants to believe that it was for the right reasons
- she gets a little bitchy when people bad mouth her mom
- she can barely control her temper when Jimmy is brought up
she’s scared of Castiel
- she doesn’t remember much of anything of her 10-minute possession, but she remembers the feeling
- she refers to it as being “the virgin in the volcano”
- because she only thinks of angelic possession in terms of sacrifice.
- his possession of her wasn’t long enough for her to get anything out of it, just the knowledge that he is vast and powerful
Claire is Castiel’s “True Vessel”
- That “As it is in heaven, so shall it be on earth” thing (aka the “Why Sam is Lucifer’s Vessel but not Michael’s” reasoning) threw a bit of a wrench into that; in order for Claire to mature into the True Vessel, she would have to be closer in experience to Castiel;
- In other words, her father would have to go missing with no sign of ever returning, and she would have to go hunting for him.
- When Castiel actually took her as a vessel, she was only beginning to go down that road, so it’s not quite a perfect match, and why Castiel was willing to take Jimmy back instead of staying with Claire
- as a side note, even if Castiel and Claire ever meet again, it’s unlikely that Castiel would give up Jimmy’s body for hers.
- after everything that Castiel and Jimmy have gone through together, Jimmy’s body & soul have grown into something more than any “True Vessel” could ever be.
Hunting was never Claire’s intention
- all she wanted to do was find her dad
- she followed a trail of dead angels, but never seemed to catch up to Castiel or the Winchesters
- after awhile she started putting together the signs of demon possession and started trying to use that to find them
- slowly she actually started to learn about more “normal” supernatural entities, and how to protect herself
- leading in to how to protect other people when they started getting in over their heads
- and finally taking a proactive role in protecting people by actively hunting the supernatural
- looking back on it, she laughs about “going about things backwards”
There will probably be more to come, but I’m being distracted by TVtropes.