…at some point I started writing a Supernatural/Spiderman crossover with Claire as Venom.

IDEK.


Claire Novak has bound herself in protections.

She has carved sigils into her body, woven magic into every inch of her skin, and crafted rituals that burnt into her soul. She has done everything she has been able to find, everything that she could think of, to keep demons and angels out of the hole burnt through her by Castiel’s all too brief presence.

She goes to her knees every night and prays. Every day that she is able, she attends mass. She buries herself in the bible, in myths and legends and truth and lies. She fills herself with knowledge holy and arcane, as well as demonic and profane. Everything that she is is bound up in angels and demons and the things that go bump in the night.

She wants to find her father. She dreads finding Castiel.

On this night, she is hunting a ghost that burns out the eyes of it’s victims and she has stumbled into the church to ask for guidance. All of her research into this case leads her back again and again to the stories she had heard years ago about the true forms of angels. It’s more than a little unnerving.

For all of her protections, for everything that she has done to keep herself safe from demons and angels and the beasts of the supernatural, she is woefully unprepared for what she finds in the church. Or rather: what finds her.

It is black and thick, like ectoplasm, but when she touches it to make sure it latches on and covers her hand. She doesn’t scream, but she does scramble back for her kit.

She was prepared for almost every type of demon or monster documented.

Alien symbiotes were another story entirely.

An unfinished drabble meant for the abitofclaireity blog. 


Claire is learning how to be alone.

The shock and betrayal and rage that dogged her heels for so long after her father first disappeared has given away just as surely as her hope that he’d come back. She got him back once; a second time is impossible. So she stomps on the last shards of her hope and packs her father away. She takes her first step.

The terror that had gripped her when her mother vanished has faded away. She yet hopes that she’ll get a response to her messages, but at this point it’s more likely her messages will bounce back to her when the service is finally cut off. That realization is the second step.

The third step was the month by herself in Missouri. As much time as she spent worrying and panicking and just generally being miserable, she was also learning how to take care of herself. It helped to build up something of an independent streak, and her confidence in herself grew when both her hitch-hiking adventure to Kansas City and the bus trip to Odin turned out fine.

She doesn’t regret making that trip.

Last one for today, I think. Another unfinished Supernatural fic. I do miss playing around in Claire’s head…


It is strange coincidence that leads to Krissy Chambers and Claire Novak meeting. Not that Claire puts much stock into “coincidence”. She’s experienced too much, learned of the real world in too hard a way to not realize that someone out there (up there) is keeping an eye on her. She can hope that it is Castiel, keeping his promise, but this… this doesn’t feel like Castiel’s work.

She’s gone back to school. Despite running for her life, running from everything she’d ever known; despite angels and demons and possessions, Claire is still just a normal human girl. Normal human girls, Amelia reminds quietly, go to school. They learn how to function in the world and they don’t go chasing after angels. They don’t hunt demons and they don’t get involved.

Normal girls settle into a little town in the middle of nowhere and don’t react when their daddies appear on television after proclaiming themselves God and murdering everyone involved with a political campaign. That’s not Daddy anyways. Just whatever is wearing his body today (it’s not Castiel, it can’t be Castiel), and normal girls don’t know that creatures and beings can wear humans like suits so you really should just forget about all of that, Claire. Just be a normal girl.

So Claire goes back to school. She’s rough around the edges, a couple years on the road running will do that; her education is shot through, but she’s not even using her real name (they are missing people, with a body found in their home, and now the police have reopened the case believing Jimmy may have killed them, too) so what does it matter? Amelia managed to put together enough money to have fake identities cobbled together, and if it says that Claire’s poor grades are because of disinterest and not being on the run? Well, that’s just good cover.

She’s not the only one in the school that has to deal with after school “lessons” to catch up. There’s a smattering of kids deemed too rowdy or rough or disinterested that wind up sitting in the counselor’s office every afternoon. Supposedly they’re there to get caught up, or learn new study habits or something like that, but all Claire ever hears from the teacher is that they’re too stupid to learn anything, so why don’t you just do your homework for once you little brats?

Claire doesn’t bother to complain. The teacher doesn’t even bother to check what they’re working on, so she normally brings her bible and one of the old books they’d come across on the run. She’s trying to correlate biblical evidence with hunter resources, trying to find something (anything) that will help her find Castiel and Jimmy and get her Daddy back. It’s easier to do it here than try to work it around Amelia.

And if that reinforces her bad grades and the image of poor work ethic? Well… Claire doesn’t care. She has more important things to worry about.

There is so much more to worry about and consider and fit together that she doesn’t even notice the new girl for a few weeks. Logically, she knows the dark haired girl is there; they share classes and Claire knows she was introduced, but Claire doesn’t have the time or patience to bother with any of her classmates and so put the girl out of her mind.

It’s a bit of a surprise when she thumps down across from Claire at lunch time one day, looking frustrated and annoyed. The blond stares at her blankly for a long moment, before the brunette huffs a slightly awkward “it’s raining, I’m not eating outside” and waves to the rest of the room. There are a few other open seats, but Claire wouldn’t want to sit in them either.

Another moment of awkward silence passes by before the other girl sticks her hand out. “Krissy Chambers.”

Claire’s gaze flicks down to the offered hand. After a moment, right as Krissy looked about ready to take it back, Claire reaches out and gives it a good shake. “Claire Strider.” The name falls easily off her lips after so long, but every syllable feels like another pound of pressure on her soul. Krissy doesn’t say anything else for the meal, but apparently giving her name was enough for her to decide that they should sit together at their after school lessons.

The blond isn’t too happy with that, leaving the hunting journal she’d been browsing in her bag. She takes notes on stories in the bible that might be relative to her search, while Krissy… Krissy is actually trying to do her homework. She has what looks to be photocopies of a psychology textbook spread out across her half of the table, highlighter in hand and pen between her teeth.

Claire does her best to ignore her.

That goes right out the window when the pen drops from her mouth and she starts swearing. When she doesn’t stop after a few seconds, Claire clamps a hand down over her mouth with a glare. “Do you want us to get detention? Because I sure as shooting don’t.”

Krissy looks pale and bewildered, peeling Claire’s hand away and  scrambling to gather up her papers. She’s not fast enough for Claire not to see the mug shot on the page and the name slips out before she can stop herself “Dean?”

Krissy stills. Her hands shake just the slightest bit as she smooths out the paper, but her small laugh is flippant. “Oh, I guess you’ve done this assignment before?”

“No.” the word is sharp and clipped and Krissy stares blankly at the hand held out to her for several long minutes before she understands that what Claire wants is the photocopies. Then she takes a few more minutes to decide if she really wants to hand them over, but really there’s no reason not to.

Claire takes them with all the delicacy of someone who’s been searching for this treasure for a very very long time. The information on the pages is next to useless to her, but it’s an interesting read nonetheless. If she hadn’t had direct experience with angels and demons and Sam and Dean Winchester, she might have bought into the idea presented to her in the case study.

Because that’s what it is; a psychological case study on a pair of brothers that were so lost in their religious delusions that they “hunted” demons and killed no few good people along the way. It’s old enough that it doesn’t mention anything about the serial killing spree of a few months earlier, but it’s certainly an unnerving read.

Krissy has puffed up some while Claire read, trying to make up for her loss of composure with bravado. “Crazy, huh? That there would be people out there who think demons exist and would kill others over it? Kinda makes me glad we’re small town, you know?”

“Is it?” Claire’s fingers curl around her bible as she stands. “I doubt that being in a small town would protect you from any such thing.” she doesn’t clarify whether she’s talking demons or serial killers, but the way that Krissy’s eyes narrow is… telling. Claire doesn’t know what it tells her, exactly, only that Krissy caught her ambiguity.

The dark haired girl crumples her papers and shoves them haphazardly into her bag before bouncing up after the blond. “So how did you know his name was Dean, if you haven’t done this assignment before?”

Claire shoots her an annoyed look, not exactly pleased that she had decided to follow. They’re cutting out early, but at this point Claire doesn’t think it will matter. She never uses the time for what it was meant for, after all, and the teacher knows it. Claire is one of the “stupid” ones. She’s already walking away when she answers: “None of your business, Chambers.”

Krissy pulls a face at that, shoving her hands into her pockets and trotting after the long legged teenager. Really, they’re almost the same height, but there’s a coldness to the air around Claire that makes her seem taller. She’s not going to give up on this, not now that her curiousity has been struck. “Oh c’mon, Strider. I bet it’s not even that interesting!”

Claire doesn’t say or do anything that could be considered a response; no sharp looks, no walking faster, no twitches or tells and Krissy is reluctantly impressed. The girl is good, but Krissy is nothing if not determined. Claire knows that the other girl is doing nothing short of stalking her, trying to find a chink in her armor and wriggle the information out of her.

And Claire is kind of impressed by her tenacity, and decides to take a leap of faith. She has angels at her back, after all. If Krissy is a demon or creature, she has that protection. So she takes the only hunter’s journal she has to their “after school study” session, and starts to compare the notes she’s taken over the last few days of stalking to the notes the hunter took.

nonisland:

crowleyshouseplant:

siterlas:

fragmentsshoredagainstmyruin:

likeastairmaster:

Claire Novak, Supernatural.

not one girl I think
      who looks on the light of the sun
           will ever
           have wisdom
           like this

-Sappho, 56 (trans. Anne Carson)

#Amelia convinced Claire to try and see a therapist once #Claire spent ten sessions staring down a man with thick-rimmed glasses and a sweater-vest without saying a single word #When he asked her to try and keep a journal #or a dream diary #or anything #she brought him back a notebook that said #’i AM the sun’ over and over and over again #on every line of every page #I am the sun #I am the sun #I AM the sun

I said to the sun, ‘Tell me about the big bang.’ The sun said, ‘It hurts to become.’” – Andrea Gibson

#amelia writes different things in her journal #scribbles them out later so that she can’t see them #till the pages are scratched up with black ink until her fingertips are stained no matter how hard she rubs them with soap #she hates the way claire makes her feel so small when she’s serving her a breakfast of scrambled eggs and toast

…and what remained were broken wings, and childhood dreams left in pieces on the floor. A soul touched by power so brilliant and good it left blindness in it’s wake, left fingers scrambling and scratching and clawing to fill the hole that the light burnt through her with hope and love and faith—

—but nothing filled it but shadows, and Claire wondered if this is what Eve felt when banished from the Garden. 

She didn’t bother to wonder if that’s why she turned to contracts and magic and darkness. It was all that would fill the rift in her soul Castiel had left.

…um. 

well I’ve done angel!claire before

so here is some weird ass demon-magic-claire… thing? 

abitofclaireity:

She knows better than to listen to her classmates. Claire has a lot of experience in ignoring the nasty whisper that tend to spring up around her not-quite-normal family. She’s ignored the whispers about her deadbeat dad and about how her mother struggled to support them. About her increasingly shabby clothing. About how awful her mother is for dragging her around the country instead of sending her to school. It’s all variations on the same old theme, and all things that she learned to tune out years ago.

But this is different. This doesn’t start with a whisper of “Amelia” or “Jimmy” or “Claire”.

It starts with giggles and “Castiel.”

She can’t help but look over curiously. There are three girls from her class hunched over an iPad; two of them look absolutely enthralled in whatever is on the screen, while the third is quite obviously disinterested. It only takes a moment for Claire to realize that they’re reading; she recognizes the passages. Not only because she’s read the book, but because she lived it. 

They’re not very far into “The Rapture”. From what she’s hearing, they’re only just reaching the point where her father’s madness becomes noticeable. She’s not sure how she feels about how it’s portrayed in the book; a lot of things that happened got glossed over or ignored entirely. A lot of the things Jimmy had tried to get them to believe him about Castiel had frightened Amelia and Claire; it’s far from a good memory.

None of that matters now.

None of that matters in the wake of “And then the bitch had the gall not to believe him!”

She’s telling herself to calm down. That these girls don’t know what it was like; that they’ve only read the bits and pieces of their lives that make Jimmy look good for accepting Castiel. They didn’t live through it, through the fear that her father was slowly going insane, talking out loud to invisible people and the increasingly dangerous stunts designed to try and prove to his family that he wasn’t.  

This she tells herself while the two supernatural fangirls rant and rave about how stupid and mean Amelia is for not believing that something special and magical was happening when Jimmy tried boiling his hand. How they would have known instantly that angels were real and that Jimmy had been chosen for something more. That they would have stood by his side and supported him in ways that Amelia was just too dumb to know how. It is at this point that the narrator leans towards her friends conspiratorially. “She totally deserves it when she gets possessed by a demon later on.”

Claire snaps.

There really isn’t any other explanation for it. One moment she is trying to calm down, trying to stop listening and the next… the next moment little miss narrator is screaming in pain as Claire stomps on her fingers hard enough to crack the screen on the iPad underneath them.

By the time she’s pulled off of the girls, Narrator-girl’s fingers are definitely broken and Fangirl’s got a truly impressive shiner. Their non-fangirl friend is covered in scratches and bruises from where she tried to pull Claire off and only got violence in response. Claire doesn’t get away without injury, either. There are scratches on her face from the girls fighting back, and her lip is split. There are bruises starting to bloom along her arms and her ribs ache from where she was grabbed.

She remains defiantly silent when they’re sent to the principal. Her silence is taken for the admission of guilt that it is when the trio blames her for starting the fight. It’s taken for the lack of regret that it is when she refuses to explain why she attacked them. She’s so stubborn about it that she remains quiet throughout the wait for her ride home, and then on the ride itself.

She has a week’s suspension as a result of her actions. She doesn’t plan on explaining. 

Okay so this is the fic thing that I’ve spent the last few hours writing and fussing over grammar in. Set in the recordofanovak/fuu!Claire universe. 

recordofanovak:

Claire Novak loses her virginity on the hood of her car.

She has a fake ID that says her name is Naomi and that she is twenty years old. 

Her hair has been cut short and temporarily dyed red, her clothes cut as provacatively as she’d been comfortable with. Between the ruby red heels, jeans that could have been painted on, a bikini top and leather jacket, she makes for a rather noticable figure. No matter how awkward and stilted she expects herself to be, it’s surprisingly easy to slip into playing a more promisicuous person. 

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The Prohpet Chuck:

The sad part about it all was that Dean and Sam fought so hard to save the future, but they never truly did. They still hunt, but now they know how Bobby felt having to watch people they knew as children grow up into this life. Now they worried. Yet they knew they had to leave the future in the hands of a Smart-Ass Kid, a Empty Vessel, an Abomination, and a Monster-Without-Its-Fangs. How were they supposed to survive?

“He’s a monster, guys. I don’t trust him,” Ben said as he looked between Jesse and Claire with a mild look of confusion, so reminiscent of his adoptive father. “Plus he threatened to kill my dad. How am I supposed to trust him.”

“You don’t trust anyone who isn’t human,” Claire said with a roll of her blue-green eyes before giving him a look of contempt. “You tend to forget you’re the only normal one here, Ben.”

“You’re a sick kid with a hero complex. She’s a bitch with daddy issues. And I’m the Anti-Christ, but you trust me. Smart, Ben. Plus he’s got a good heart. That has to count for something,” Jesse said looking to his best friend, who just shook his head. All the while trying to ignore the daggers that Claire was glaring at him.

“No, he’s right. I am a monster. But damnit I don’t kill people,” Rory said with a tight throat as if he were on the verge of tears, more angry than anything. “I threatened your dad when I was a kid and he had just killed my mother.”

“Who was a monster and killed people.”

“Dude,” Jesse said with a shake of his head. “He’s staying. We need him and you’re going to get over it. He’ll sleep in bed with me.”

Ben glared at Jesse just then. “The hell he will.”

This is who the Winchester’s left the world in the hands of and not a day goes by where they don’t spend at least an hour regretting it.

Oh lordie XD 

I like this. Not exactly how I see it happening, but I definitely like this.

(…I was confused for a long moment over “Rory”. Because his name is Jacob, so sayeth Amy when she introduces him, but I can see him changing his name in an attempt to stay under the radar so. it’s all good. )

Faith

Set in the No Rest For The Wicked Supernatural RP ‘verse.

Essentially it’s a recap of Claire from series to the point where she’s at in game. 

abitofclaireity:

When Claire was young— younger, that is— she had her father to guide her way. She didn’t have his faith in God or even the desire to abide by it, but Daddy was Daddy and playing faithful little christian always brought out the brightest of smiles.  

And then Daddy wasn’t. 

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