THIS WAS NOT WHAT I MEANT TO WRITE. But you can have it anyways. Headcanonish stuff for Claire
characters: Claire Novak
series: Supernatural
words: 429
summary: (Five times the victim)————————————-
The first time that someone used her father’s disappearance to taunt her, all Claire could do was cry.
Daddy’s last words to her rung in her ears, echoing the nasty girl’s voice: her daddy didn’t want her. Her daddy left her because she wasn’t good enough for him. She is the reason that daddy is gone.
She’s only ten. She has no idea what it is that she did wrong, but she promises that if he comes home she’ll do better, be better. She’ll go to mass every day, and say grace, and she won’t even complain about it. She’ll make sure to change out of her Sunday best after church before she goes out to play. She promises all of this in her bedtime prayers, begging and pleading with God to bring her daddy back.
The second and third times that her classmates torment her, she locks herself into the girl’s washroom to escape it. She’s crying and heartbroken, but she’s also so mad that she throws her bag at the mirror and screams at daddy for leaving them. Why? What did she do that made him hate her so much that he left?
Mom tries to explain to her that it’s not her fault. She tries to tell her that daddy had been having some problems and just needs some time to himself, but Claire knows she’s lying. She’s heard mom crying late at night, and heard the phone calls, seen the flyers. Mom is trying so hard to find him, but he’s just gone.
The fourth time that some girl tries to make her cry, Claire hits her. It’s an accident in all honesty. The girl had backed her into a corner, and in trying to escape, she caught the other girl across the face with her hand.
The rules were pretty straight forwards: bullying was bad, but you got into a lot more trouble for fighting, and Claire was sent home while the other girl went to the nurse. Her mom wasn’t happy in the slightest. She yelled and cried and it made Claire feel terrible for putting more stress on her mother. She promised not to fight ever again.
Except that the fifth time that someone brought up her daddy, it wasn’t one of the girls in her class. It was the older brother of the girl that she’d hit, and when he started in on the same tirade, Claire lost it. With tears streaming down her face, she threw herself at him; biting and scratching and just trying to make him shut up.
The bullying didn’t stop.
But Claire eventually stopped crying.
Tag: world building with rennegades
headcanony stuff for Claire
mashing the stuff from the young!Claire I play into the list of stuff I’m slowly putting together for the future!Claire I want to play.
it almost broke Claire when Castiel told her he wasn’t her father
- even later, when she knows it wasn’t Jimmy, it still stings
- because this is an angel and they are supposed to be loving representatives of God
- and he broke her for most of year; made her think her father didn’t want her
she was raised as a devout Christian.
- she wasn’t totally interested in it, but it made father happy for her to go along with it
- and then Jimmy left
- and Claire prayed every night that he would return
- she tried to be a better Christian, thinking that would make him return
- but it freaked Amelia out whenever she got too into it
- because Amelia was afraid she’d have the same sort of break with reality that Jimmy had had
- when daddy came home, Claire knew it was because she had prayed so hard
- so when Castiel asked to use her body to save her parents, she said yes.
she spent at least a year on the run with Amelia
- from both police and demons
- what with Roger’s dead body left in their house
- and with however the demons knew Jimmy was empty, Amelia was afraid that they’d know Claire had briefly been a vessel
- Amelia drained her bank accounts, Jimmy’s accounts, even Claire’s savings account to fund them through the year
- which flagged the police, who were treating Claire as a kidnap victim
- (the police had a theory that Jimmy came home, kidnapped Claire & Amelia, possibly killing them the way he killed Roger, but they had hope they’d find at least Claire alive)
- it was a really rough year on both of them
- Claire will never tell anyone how hard it was
Daddy Issues! because supernatural wouldn’t be complete without them.
- she spent a year thinking it was her fault that daddy left
- and then there was that guilt that she was afraid of Jimmy when he was just trying to protect her from demons
- and the guilt over Jimmy giving up his body to Castiel on a permanent basis so she wouldn’t have to
- it’s an awkward ‘I love him for saving me, hate him for abandoning me’ back and forth
she’s over protective of Amelia and Jimmy. and even Castiel
- because as much as she hates Castiel for taking her father away, she wants to believe that it was for the right reasons
- she gets a little bitchy when people bad mouth her mom
- she can barely control her temper when Jimmy is brought up
she’s scared of Castiel
- she doesn’t remember much of anything of her 10-minute possession, but she remembers the feeling
- she refers to it as being “the virgin in the volcano”
- because she only thinks of angelic possession in terms of sacrifice.
- his possession of her wasn’t long enough for her to get anything out of it, just the knowledge that he is vast and powerful
Claire is Castiel’s “True Vessel”
- That “As it is in heaven, so shall it be on earth” thing (aka the “Why Sam is Lucifer’s Vessel but not Michael’s” reasoning) threw a bit of a wrench into that; in order for Claire to mature into the True Vessel, she would have to be closer in experience to Castiel;
- In other words, her father would have to go missing with no sign of ever returning, and she would have to go hunting for him.
- When Castiel actually took her as a vessel, she was only beginning to go down that road, so it’s not quite a perfect match, and why Castiel was willing to take Jimmy back instead of staying with Claire
- as a side note, even if Castiel and Claire ever meet again, it’s unlikely that Castiel would give up Jimmy’s body for hers.
- after everything that Castiel and Jimmy have gone through together, Jimmy’s body & soul have grown into something more than any “True Vessel” could ever be.
Hunting was never Claire’s intention
- all she wanted to do was find her dad
- she followed a trail of dead angels, but never seemed to catch up to Castiel or the Winchesters
- after awhile she started putting together the signs of demon possession and started trying to use that to find them
- slowly she actually started to learn about more “normal” supernatural entities, and how to protect herself
- leading in to how to protect other people when they started getting in over their heads
- and finally taking a proactive role in protecting people by actively hunting the supernatural
- looking back on it, she laughs about “going about things backwards”
There will probably be more to come, but I’m being distracted by TVtropes.
Novak Family Headcanon
Another note for my Claire rp journal headcanon, but as it actually pertains to more than just Claire I figured I’d make it a Novak Family thing.
Like her dad, Claire didn’t get a whole lot out of being a Vessel. No super powers, no epic knowledge, nothing that sets her apart from the rest of humanity.
Amelia, on the other hand… with the way that the demon was forced out and killed, there was a residue left behind. Its not enough to give her any fancy powers but its enough that she can feel an angel’s grace as a creepy crawlie feeling along her spine.
The worst part of it is that she can feel the remnants of Castiel’s grace in Claire, and she lives in constant fear that Claire will disappear the way Jimmy did.
So now that I’ve exploded Claire all over the internets (ok yes. two journals is not the whole of the internet. shoosh.) it’s time for some Novak Family Headcanon!
- Castiel doesn’t think to put any protections on Claire and Amelia until after he’s started his downward spiral into humanity/losing his powers
- He doesn’t expect them to truly be targets, so he doesn’t put the same level of protection on them as he does Sam and Dean (mostly so he can conserve his powers for the fight he’s found himself in.)
- Amelia buys (and in some cases steals) texts and grimoires and anything she can think of to to protect her daughter/hide them from demons and angels alike
- But Claire is the one who winds up doing all the research and conducting experiments and eventually cloaking them from everything ever
- even though Claire still wants to see Castiel and Jimmy more than anything in the world and prays to both of them every night.
And now for some Ben Braeden head canonish stuff:
- Erasing a year’s worth of memories is no easy task. And Castiel was honestly more focused on erasing Lisa’s memories than Ben’s.
- Castiel has that whole sinning thing going for him now, so we can totally call it jealousy.
- Anyways, the point of this is that Castiel’s messing around in Ben’s brain caused some problems ala Joyce Summers & The Dawn Thing.
- Except that Ben actually manages to survive the brain surgery thing.
- This doesn’t happen until he’s like… 21, though
- So he gets his teenage years of blissful normality.
- and then after the tumor is removed, it’s like. So yeah. Cas didn’t actually remove anything. Just like… shoved the memories into the same spot that early childhood memories go.
I dunno. I just like the idea of Ben having to have brain surgery, and shaving his head to show off the scar when he finally turns hunter. Then coming up with completely random stories as to how he got it. “Oh well I was fighting a Wendigo, right? And—”
abitofclaireity : headcanon
+ it almost broke claire when castiel told her he wasn’t her father
- even later, when she knows it wasn’t jimmy, she’s still stung by it
- because this is an angel and they are supposed to be loving representatives of god
- and he broke her for most of year; made her think her daddy didn’t want her
+ she got into fights with classmates over her dad leaving
+ and when that got her into too much trouble, she started mouthing off when jimmy got brought up
+ she closed herself off to people for a long time, and lost most of her school friends
- she still doesn’t have a lot of friends
- most of the people she calls ‘friend’ are from church
- and most of them are older than her
+ she was raised as a devout christian.
- she wasn’t totally interested in it, but it made daddy happy for her to go along with it
- and then jimmy left
- and claire prayed every night that he would return
- she tried to be a better christian, thinking that would make him return
- but it freaked amelia out whenever she got too into it
- because amelia was afraid she’d have the same sort of break with reality that jimmy had
- when daddy came home, claire knew it was because she had prayed so hard
- so when castiel asked to use her body to save her parents, she said yes.
+ she spent at least a year on the run with amelia
- from both police and demons
- what with roger’s dead body left in their house
- and with however the demons knew jimmy was empty, amelia was afraid that they’d know claire had briefly been a vessel
- amelia drained her bank accounts, jimmy’s accounts, even claire’s savings account to fund them through the year
- which flagged the police, who were treating claire as a kidnap victim
- (the police had a theory that jimmy came home, kidnapped claire & amelia, possibly killing them the way he killed roger, but they had hope they’d find at least claire alive)
- it was a really rough year on both of them
- claire will never tell anyone how hard it was
+ Daddy Issues! because supernatural wouldn’t be complete without them.
- she spent a year thinking it was her fault that daddy left
- and then there was that guilt that she was afraid of daddy when he was just trying to protect her from demons
- and the guilt from daddy giving up his body to castiel on a permanent basis so she wouldn’t have to
- there’s the confusion and horror of knowing if daddy had never come home, she would still actually have a home/wouldn’t be on the run
- there may be some bitterness and rage in there, too
- it’s an awkward ‘i love him for saving me, hate him for abandoning me’ back and forth
+ she’s over protective of amelia and jimmy. and even castiel
- because as much as she hates castiel for taking away her daddy, she wants to believe it was for the right reasons
- she gets a little bitchy when people bad mouth her mom
- she can barely control her temper when her daddy is brought up
+ she’s scared of castiel
- she loves him for saving them, and hates him for taking her daddy away, but most of all she’s scared of him
- because while she doesn’t remember much of anything of her 10-minute possession, she remembers the feeling
- she refers to it as being “the virgin in the volcano”
- because she’s at that age where things like that are funny because they ~offend~ people
- and because she only thinks of angelic possession in terms of sacrifice.
+ she knows next to nothing about castiel
- his possession of her wasn’t long enough for her to get anything out of it
- she’s just a thirteen year old who once said yes to an angel
- her impression of castiel is that he is cold and aloof, and someone to be wary of
- (or scared of)
+ claire still prays every night
- to God, to daddy, to Castiel… she’s not sure who she’s praying to or for anymore
- she just knows that she’s a good christian and that’s what good christians do
reposted from abitofclairety’s headcanon page
awolfsconviction : verses
Primary Universe (untagged) : Post-Avengers Movie, without Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D.; Phil is Fenrir, son of Loki, fanboy of Captain America, and determined to prove his worth as a regular mortal man. Has a contentious relationship with his birth father.
verse: triad // Ragnarok Triad : Thor is being kept out of the loop, Loki isn’t dead and is openly King of Asgard, the Warriors Three, Sif, and Odin have vanished, and Phil’s distaste for his father has resulted in trapping Tony and himself in Asgard. Whoops. [DARK]
reposted from awolfconviction’s verses page
heartofthecalamity: verses
no tag: mainverse
FF7 Universe, Post Advent Children, Pre-Dirge of Cerberus
Possessing the body of Lucrecia Crescent, JENOVA traverses the Planet. She is weak, but not powerless, and with the determination of centuries she intends to resume her original plan: infect all living beings, so that when they die their souls and life energy come to her instead of the Planet. It’s a little harder this time; the Planet has seen her attempt this twice now, and has it’s defences.She is nothing if not determined.
tag:v: strife & discord
FF7 Universe
Post-Everything Canon. Old age eventually takes all organic beings. Despite all that had been done to him, Cloud was still organic at the core and so he too eventually succumbed to it. Unfortunately for the Planet within him lay the final remnants of Jenova, and with his last breath the Calamity surged.Jenova wears the face of her last son to lay waste to his precious Planet.
tag: v: brain eater
Marvel/FF7 Crossover Universe
The original verse for this blog (you can thank Danny for the blog existing).In this universe, the Calamity came upon the realm of Asgard when Auðumbla and her people still lived. Mirroring what happened with the Cetra, the Calamity spreads; infecting and devouring all that she can, almost unstoppable— almost. As with FF7, the Calamity was finally defeated and imprisoned. Her essence/spirit/life energy (whatever you wish to refer to it as) was compressed down as tight as they could make it… and in doing so created the Tesseract.
The experience was far more traumatic than the canon imprisonment, with the full compression being done all at once and not two thousand years apart; the Calamity would thus fall into a stupor that would last millennia.
She would not awaken until Arnim Zola discovered how to harness some of her abilities; in this universe Zola is basically Hojo. Because reasons.
If you’d like to play a character originating from this universe, please contact me! I would love to play with you 🙂
[Some ideas Danny and I were throwing around earlier: Vincent Valentine is the Winter Soldier; SOLDIER as an SSR/Early SHIELDRA attempt to recreate the super soldier serum; Rufus Shinra Director of S.H.I.E.L.D.; S.H.I.E.L.D. Agents nick named as Turks…]
reposted from heartofthecalamity’s verses page
A being of many names…
The Calamity
The first name. Given by a world long gone, terrorized by terrible monsters great and small for generations as it slowly decayed into lifeless rock.
Tesseract
The beating heart in the center of the Calamity was given this name as it was torn free of the chrysalis of desiccated rock that had once been a world of it’s own.
Jenova
The name it gave to Arnim Zola when he awoke the long slumbering beast, and it began to whisper its secrets to him. Although he could not understand the language being used, it was still able to convey enough to him that he could sample the energy oh-so-freely provided.
Hypercube
The designation given by Howard Stark once it was pulled from the depths of the ocean. It slept once more and would not rise to answer Zola once he worked for S.H.I.E.L.D.
That did not mean he didn’t use what he already knew.
Mother
Oh those beautiful lost little children… preparing the way without even knowing it…
Jenell Avon
The newest. The point of contact.
The need for the stone husk is gone.
It— she walks free upon this world where she has slumbered for millennia.
The countdown to Armageddon has begun.
ON FENRIR, LOKI, AND THE ASGARDIANS
In the very first drabble on this blog is the line: “born through magic from the lust of a Jotun woman and a the darkest depths of a prince’s desire for love unconditional”. This is vague on purpose. There are a few ways of translating this, but the one I tend to fall back on is that around the time when Loki started maturing into an adult he wound up the target of a giantess’ obsession. All Loki wanted was to feel the sort of unconditional love that Thor got from their parents and his magic reacted.
The next thing you know, a giantess is giving birth to Loki’s son and dumping a wolf-pup on the Asgardians. Stuff happens, Fenrir grows up and up and up and the wolf definitely got his mother’s scale as he winds up gigantic. The Asgardians start worrying, Odin makes a decision, and Fenrir is tricked into caging himself.
For whatever reason Loki does not visit his child after that. A clean break? Another attempt to fit himself into Odin’s favor? I don’t know. I’m trying to avoid writing anything specific for characters other than Phil.
On that note: I don’t believe in forcing children and relations on other players. I’d like to play with a Loki or two, but I understand that the whole I’m-your-son aspect can be off putting. I’m willing to play Phil as being the son of an alternate timeline/reality version of Loki, or as a wolf shape shifter of some variety. Drop me a line, we can figure it out.
reposted from awolfsconviction’s family page
From Teenage Layabout to Secret Agent
A bright and cheerful woman, Usagi is the kind of person who has little to no filter on her mouth. She’s perfectly capable of keeping secrets and being responsible, it’s just the little things that slip out; strange questions and twisty turny logic that sometimes (most times) leads to absolutely nowhere. She’s been this way her whole life and has never really seen a need to stop, not even after her “life changing event”.
Up until said event, Usagi was your average Japanese teenager. She hung out with her friends, read manga, played video games, and struggled with school. There are times when she looks at her life “before” and can only shake her head— she was so much the shoujo heroine stereotype that it shouldn’t have come as a surprise when she stumbled right into becoming one.
At fourteen years old Usagi found an old locket decorated to look like the moon, and thought it pretty enough to hold onto. When she opened it up she found a beautiful stone about the size of her thumbnail, and promptly (accidentally) bound herself to an ancient alien artifact. On the upside it was designed to amplify already existing powers. On the downside Usagi hadn’t known she was a mutant until the moment when the binding activated her powers.
For the first few weeks after getting the boost, Usagi kept it to herself and tried to pretend she hadn’t done anything. It wasn’t until an accident left her father bedridden, and she instinctively knew where and why he was injured that she realized that something had seriously changed. More so that she could do something about it: injuries were tangled knots of threads to her and with her powers tingling in the tips of her fingers she could touch them. Furthermore she could untangle them and in doing so heal the person in question.
Soon thereafter she began sneaking out and trying to heal as many people in hospitals and care centers as she could; it took time and a lot of concentration, but it was work that she was proud of. She was making a difference.
It was by pure accident that one of the people she was healing turned out to be an undercover S.H.I.E.L.D. agent. The agent would eventually manage to recruit her with the promise of getting her schooling as a nurse or doctor, whichever she prefered, and off she went.
She laughs at herself now for being so naive; she was trained as a field agent with the intention of going out there and healing agents on duty. Somewhere along the way she became one of those agents on duty, and fourteen years after her inital introduction to S.H.I.E.L.D. she wouldn’t have it any other way.
copy/paste from the designationmoon backstory page