Month: October 2014

captain-rel:

“We lift them all aboard the ship and take off fast as we can! And that’s when he spoke to me.
~Palomo, come closer.~ It was my Captain! I leaned in… ‘DON’T SPEAK TUCKER. YOU NEED YOUR STRENGTH.’
But he brushed my hand aside, looked me straight in the eye, and said, “Palomo…Ya did good kid. Ya did good.”

”AW THAT’S BULLSHIT! What I actually told you, was to stop crying, and to shut the fuck up.”

“Okay, yEaH, but, the sentiment was still there.”

In commemoration of that scene where we were like TUCKER’S NOT DEAAAAAD WOOOOOO

uncensoredhijabii:

kingjaffejoffer:

Husain Abdullah received an unsportsmanlike conduct penalty for praying on Monday. [Yahoo]

This is probably going to be a big deal tomorrow. The NFL can’t do anything right this year.

it is a big deal, how many times has tebow kneeled down? Has he ever been penalized? No. Bullshit. Then they have the audacity to be calling it excessive celebration, screw the NFL. Let a white Christian male kneel down and protect his ass, create a movement and call it tebowing, but once a Black Muslim Male does it, it’s flagged. IT’S ALL FUN AND GAMES UNTIL IT’S NO LONGER INVOLVING A WHITE CHRISTIAN MALE BUT RATHER A BLACK MUSLIM. LOAD OF B.S.

ofhouseadama:

A brief history of fandom, for the teenagers on here who somehow think tumblr invented fandom:

  • 1960s: with the advent of Star Trek, fandom moves into the public sphere for the first time with a television in almost every home, creating a large group of people all excited about one thing. Beforehand, fans mostly had relationships with the author, not with each other. Obviously there were groups and conventions, but Star Trek was the beginning of an independent, interactive, saturated fandom culture. 
  • This means in the coming years: conventions, mailing groups (both public and private), fan magazines, and fanfiction presses. 
  • Yeah this pretty much remains the deal until the internet gets put into every home in the 90s. 
  • EXAMPLES OF BIG FUCKING DEAL FANDOMS, 90s EDITION: X-Files, Xena, Star Trek, Star Wars, ASoIaF, The West Wing, Buffy
  • So with the internet, this really cool thing happened: Geocities. And then Yahoo groups. Early fanfiction archives. Back in the day, fandoms had to create their own private spaces. This made fandoms on the internet smaller and less accessible than fanzine operated ones. However, since fans on the internet didn’t have to pass through an editorial board to publish their fic, it was the beginning of the democratization of fandom. 
  • In 1998, fanfiction.net was launched to compete with the hundreds of independent, fandom-oriented fanfiction archives. More democratization, although fanfiction was marketed on how many reviews one had. You had to, like today, “break into the market.” 
  • In 1999, Livejournal was launched. Fans created communities and their own private journals which was like woah, we have our own places to store our own fic? And can cross-post them places? However, with Livejournal came the idea of the internet-based BNF: big name fan. Since communities had moderators and posts could be friend or community locked, people could easily gain social capital. 
  • See also: Cassie Claire and misscribe. 
  • On the other hand, authors like George RR Martin get Livejournals. 
  • Around this time was also the rise of forums. Again, moderators had a lot of power, as did certain users who would rise to the position of moderator. People rapidly gained and lost power, causing quick turnover in these parts of fandom. 
  • In 2002, due to legal concerns, fanfiction.net bans NC-17 fanfiction. 
  • Adultfanfiction.net is created to fill the void. For years, 13 year olds would pretend to be 18 to enter. Including myself. 
  • In 2005, fanfiction.net, again due to legal concerns, bans “choose your own adventure” and songfics. 
  • In 2007, Archive of Our Own is launched to further democratize fandom in response to fanfiction.net’s new stringent rules, offering writers a cleaner format, kudos, hit counters, and bookmarks. However, many older fandoms have not made the move. 
  • In 2007, tumblr is launched. It would take until 2010 for it to reach saturation on the internet, meaning that most fandoms which lived and died pre-2010 exist(ed) on Geocities, Yahoo Groups, independent archives, ff.net, etc. 
  • In 2009, Geocities is taken offline. Thousands mourn because they never backed up really old fic that they liked. 
  • In 2012, most major broadcasting companies have caught on to the fact that tumblr has democratized fandom to a degree of anarchy and mob mentality, and utilize it, since tumblr is unmoderated. 

And that’s what you missed on FANDOM EXISTED BEFORE TUMBLR, THANK YOU VERY MUCH. 

Starting Over: A birthday wish

Starting Over: A birthday wish

I will be 29 on the 22nd of October, and all I want this year is to be able to start over. I suffer from major depressive disorder, and had a breakdown a little over a year ago. It was the primary reason that I left my job and I have been living …

I did it.

I made myself a crowdfunding/donation page for people to give me birthday moneys so I can get myself out of this fucking hole.

Ugh, I already feel sleezy for begging for money even as a birthday present and with a “perk”. 

It is October 1st.

That means my birthday is three weeks away (October 22nd).

As impossible as it is, I would like to be debt free and able to start over by November 1st. I don’t want to spend another year sobbing over all the things I need to do but can’t because I am paralyzed by debt, anxiety, and anxiety over debt.

So. I’m going to see about crowdfunding my birthday. Either to pay off my debt or just to raise the $400 for that voice acting program thingy. I dislike asking for money, but if it’s for my birthday, it doesn’t bother me quite so much. Birthday money doesn’t go on the “to be paid back” list, which means it’s not adding to my anxiety.

This is my plan.
It’s not going to work.
But it is still a plan.